chasing.the.track

i still hate sch swimming training.
i mean, sometimes i feel its really pointless to go for training. although i guess i do have a obligation to go, its sometimes is meaningless to me. other ppl would say that i just have meaningless issues but its simply down to several reasons(which i wont put down here).
i dont enjoy it.(club)synchro training sometimes covers as much mileage as swimming training.i feel empty when i go for training and train 'half-asleep'.but i think the main reason behind it is just..........
like i said, its too sensitive to put down.